ridiculousness.

December 6, 2012 by Ali

So, I woke up this morning, and had a small revelation:

I have been a bit ridiculous lately.

Ok, maybe more than a bit. :)

I am leaving in five days for an amazing Europe trip I have been looking forward to for months. My itinerary is a dream come true, I get the privilege of seeing a good friend’s beautiful love story continue with her wedding, and I get to spend 2 of the 3 weeks I will be gone traveling England with some of the most amazing friends a girl could ask for.

But while I should be living it up in the days beforehand soaking up time with friends and family, and taking in all of the beauty that is Christmastime in Kansas City, I have admittedly been in a mad, mad dash to try and get “ahead” with blogging and wrap up a million loose ends with work before I leave. I have 3 huge to-do lists posted on my refrigerator which kick up my anxiety level each time I pass by, and have been pulling ridiculously late nights trying to get everything done. And even during the times that I have set aside to spend with friends and family this week, I feel like the to-do lists are silently pounding in the background.

Story of my life. For better and worse, the Enneagram confirms that I am a 3 — an “achiever”. In good times, this can result in good and true things getting done. In bad times, it can be my default to try and prove my worth or feel a sense of accomplishment. And I think it’s safe to say I have been trying to achieve the heck out of life this month.

But today, I yield. And remember who it is that I want to be, and who I think I was created to be. And try to let go (at least for a minute) of who I think people might expect me to be. Because I’m pretty sure most of those expectations are a creation of my own, and that no one seriously expects a blog post every day I’m gone on vacation, or for me to be on social media for “x” hours/day, or for me to somehow pull crazy long days. Quite the opposite, I’m sure. My friends constantly overwhelm and bless me with their encouragement and love, and I know that me being healthy and leading more of a balanced life is probably what they would love more than anything. (I can see their knowing smiles now as they gently tell me to “relax”.)

So anyway, I don’t know if this counts as venting online, or a plea to hold me accountable. But either way, at least for today, I will publicly say that I’m hoping to do a little less, sleep a little more, and relax and enjoy this week a LOT before I go. If any of you are in the same boat, hope that we can encourage one another to do the same. And really take some time to enjoy this season that is meant to remind us of the peace, love, hope and joy that can overflow in our lives each day. :)

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About Ali

Ali Ebright is a freelance recipe developer and food writer/photographer, and blogs at Gimme Some Oven and Gimme Some Life. She also loves all things music, traveling near and far, actually making things from Pinterest, cozying up with a good book and her sweet pup, Henry, and spending time with a wonderful group of friends. Come say hello and follow Ali on Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest, Google+ & Instagram.

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10 thoughts on “ridiculousness.

  1. i can SO relate to this–thanks for sharing your thoughts. i put way too much pressure on myself and when i take a good hard look at myself, i’m the only one who cares…other people aren’t holding me to such impossible standards so why do i enforce them upon myself?

    i think you left for your trip already and i know you’re having a wonderful time soaking it all up and living in the moment! :)

    - natalie@thesweetslife

  2. Such a great reminder for EVERYONE, especially this time of year. And you’re right – we put the pressure on ourselves. The good news is that means we can always take the pressure off. HAVE SO MUCH FUN!!! xoxo

    - Liz @ The Lemon Bowl

  3. This is beautiful!! I needed this today!

    - Cassie

  4. brilliant. proud of you for this post in particular. REST. ENJOY. BASK. can’t wait to traipse England with you.

    - bet

  5. Wise, valuable post. Now go take a nap (or do something else relaxing!).

    - Darrell H

  6. Such a great post, Ali! So much of this I could have written word for word! I am going home for about a month and I have been working like crazy to try and get so many things done before I leave. This was such a great reminder that I shouldn’t be simply working toward checking things off of my to-do list but instead enjoying the season (and what I am doing) while I accomplish those things.

    - Heather

  7. Beautiful post, Ali! As a “4″ with a “3″ wing, I get a similar anxiousness. It’s definitely intruding on my life right now. You can always call me if you need somebody to tell you that yes, indeed, you can take something off your list! I’ll be one your do-less accountability partner…if you’ll be one of mine : )

    - Sarah

  8. love you, love this. i have lists everywhere, all the time, and it takes reminding myself every single day that those lists aren’t the only things that matter. ignoring them every now and then is a good thing :)

    ps: let me know if you want someone to lug your bags around europe! i’m in :)

    - brandi

  9. Good reminder, Ali. Especially at this time of year when everyone seems to rush around and forget what this season is supposed to be about; love, family, life. Thank you for that reminder.

    PS LOVE the enneagram. Well… love personality tests of all types. Kind of addicted. :)

    - Melody Harris