Our Wedding Ceremony

Fun fact: I’ve attended over 200 weddings in my life. ¬†ūüėĄ

Back when I was working as a full-time musician, I used to spend my weekends working as a wedding singer.  Which means that I have sat through soooo many wedding ceremonies.  And ha, feel like I have seen just about everything imaginable in a wedding ceremony.  And for all those years, always used to dream about someday planning a wedding ceremony of my own.

So when Barclay and I got engaged last Christmas, and spent the following Saturday afternoon all snuggled up on the couch, dreaming together about what our day might look like, one of the first things we discussed was how important it was to us both to have a meaningful ceremony. ¬†We wanted a ceremony¬†that felt holy¬†and deeply real, that was full of awesome¬†music and readings,¬†that¬†wove in everyone gathered there, and that¬†felt uniquely personal, like “us”. ¬†So over the coming months — in collaboration with Barclay’s dad, who did an amazing job as our minister¬†— we nixed all of the traditional “shoulds” and started from scratch to design a liturgical service that would provide the foundation for our marriage.

And the result was a beautiful moment in time that we will remember for the rest of our lives.

Here’s a little glimpse into our ceremony…

As I mentioned in yesterday’s post about our wedding day, our ceremony and reception took place in the great hall at Union Station, our historic train station in Kansas City. ¬†It’s long been one of Barclay’s and my favorite places in KC, with its¬†sweeping architecture, great¬†exhibits, yummy¬†coffee shop (Barclay would be remiss if I didn’t mention that), and iconic place in the heart of our city’s history.

So with our wedding having a bit of a travel theme, it seemed like the perfect place to host¬†our big day and kick off the adventure of our marriage. ¬†Plus,¬†we both really loved the idea of being in a space large enough to fit the wedding and reception so that there was no downtime in between. ¬†(Efficiency is kind of one of my favorite things. ūüėĀ) ¬†And we really loved the idea of being able to ride the streetcar back to our place afterwards.

So the second they had an opening, we knew it was the place for us.

The other great news about Union Station was that minimal decor would be needed, since the space was already so lovely on its own.

So Barclay’s mom, Jen, created some sweet¬†little bouquets to tie on chairs, which were absolutely perfect. ¬†(Stay tuned tomorrow to see her gorgeous work with the reception centerpieces!)

Then our amazing group of friends were the ones to thank for bringing to life the vision I had in my head of a million paper airplanes flying behind us.  I absolutely loved this backdrop!  We had a paper airplane party one evening to fold all of the little planes, and then spray-painted them with some gold sparklies.  Then our engineer friend, Toby, rigged some posts to hold everything up, and Cass and Peter finished off the project by stringing a zillion paper airplanes between the posts and setting everything up the day of the wedding.  It was exactly what we wanted and made us so happy when we finally saw it in person.

Thanks Jen and friends!¬†ūüėė

Then came the best part — actually seeing all of those 350 chairs fill up with our family and friends for our ceremony. ¬†By the time everyone¬†had arrived, the room was buzzing with energy. ¬†So many wonderful people…all in one place!

One of those very special guests, by the way, was my grandma (the beautiful lady above in the light green). ¬†She passed away two weeks after our wedding, but it meant the world to us that she was able to be there for our wedding that day, sitting there with a smile in the front row. ¬†She absolutely adored Barclay, and loved getting to spend time with him whenever we went home to Wichita. ¬†And I remember that when I was all teary and emotional after our rehearsal dinner, and made some offhand apology to her about being such a weepy mess¬†ūüėā, she patted my hand and looked me in the eye said , “That’s alright, dear, that’s alright. ¬†That’s exactly how you’re supposed to be right now. ūüėä”

Man, I miss her.

As everyone continued to gather, our friend Calvin filled the room with the beautiful prelude music.

Then around¬†6pm, it was finally time to begin. ¬†Barclay’s dad, Howard, got all mic-ed up and ready to go. ¬†Then the rest of the band joined Calvin in place to begin.

Although I’d like to point out that this wasn’t just any band. ¬†ūüíõ

Music was hands-down one of the most important elements of the wedding for both Barclay and I. ¬†And — having each spent¬†7 years working as full-time musicians — we’ve been privileged to play with some of the most amazing musicians in the city. ¬†And even better — to come to count them as good¬†friends. ¬†So we were thrilled when each of the¬†lovely friends above, all from various seasons of our lives, agreed to come together to form our little wedding band for the day.

And I was especially happy¬†when my longtime¬†friend, Kenny, agreed to sing the song that I had dreamed of walking down the aisle to — “You Have Me” by Gungor. ¬†That song absolutely undoes me every time I hear it. ¬†And has felt extra meaningful ever since meeting Barclay. ¬†So when Barc insisted¬†early on that he wanted me to choose the processional song for our wedding, there was no question in my mind that this was the one.

That said, it was one thing to choose the song. ¬†It was completely another to actually hear it live, performed so beautifully by such dear friends, with Kenny’s familiar soulful voice filling that huge room and Barclay standing at the end of the aisle. ¬†I just couldn’t believe the goodness of that moment.

That¬†said, the moment was bittersweet. ¬†Because as we were waiting¬†backstage with our family ready to walk down the aisle, my back was still on fire with pain.¬†ūüė£

I’d been trying to keep a brave face for the past few hours. ¬†But as I mentioned in yesterday’s post, my chronic back problems decided to flare up while we were taking photos about an hour before the ceremony began. ¬†And they only slightly seemed to be alleviating by the time the ceremony was to begin. ¬†I was trying to stay positive and focus on everything else at hand. ¬†But when things got still and quiet before the ceremony, and we we were all waiting backstage¬†to walk in, everything I’d been holding in came to the surface. ¬†And I felt¬†crushed that my body was letting me down in such an important moment.

But…c’est la vie with this back of mine. ¬†It is what it is, and it just happened to be a hot mess that particular night. ¬†And I could tell that it wasn’t going to rebound and feel much better¬†anytime soon. ¬†So in the quiet¬†backstage just¬†before the ceremony began, I gave¬†the sadness and frustration their moments. ¬†And then, moved on, and resolved to just roll with whatever came.

There one by one, everyone left, and my dad and I watched them¬†go down the aisle. ¬†ūüíõ ūüíõ ūüíõ

As you can see, our parents all looked radiant. ¬†And my sister, Sarah, and Barclay’s brother, Dooz, rocked it as our two-some wedding party.

Then, oh my goodness, there was our sweet flower girl, 3-year-old Lincoln.

A few days before the wedding, Lincoln’s mom — our friend, Lindsey — had texted us the most adorable video little Linc pacing¬†down the long hallway in her house with her big fluffy white Easter bunny basket, tossing candy out left and right, diligently practicing¬†for her role as our flower girl. ¬†So you’d better believe that she showed up ready to go on game day. ¬†ūüėä

And within seconds of starting her walk down¬†that aisle that night, I’m pretty sure she stole every single heart in the room. ¬†Sooooo cute.

Once she reached the finish line, Barclay greeted Linc with her favorite yellow lollipop.  And then she surprised him by going in for the cutest big hug.  Heart = melted.

Our Wedding Ceremony | gimmesomeoven.com

“I did it!”

Next…it was our¬†turn. ¬†ūüėä

Once the bridge of the song began, my dad looked at me and told me for the thousandth time that he loves me “more than I’ll ever know”. ¬†And together, we started down the aisle towards Barclay with that chorus ringing over and over in our ears.

“You have me.
You have me.
You have my heart completely.

You have me.
You have me.
You have my heart completely.”

I remember feeling like it the most natural thing in the world to be standing up there beside him.

No nerves.  No distractions.  Just deep, quieting peace.

And thus, our distinguished minister for the day — Barclay’s dad — began the ceremony.

When Barclay and I very first started dreaming about our wedding and wondered who might officiate the ceremony, Howard was the first to come to mind. ¬†He’s one of our favorite people in the world, and has been a tremendous source of encouragement and love and support over the course of our relationship. ¬†And — it just so happens that two of his favorite conversation topics in life are faith and love (he’s quite the matchmaker!), two key ingredients for a wedding ceremony. ¬†ūüėČ

Anyway, when we first asked him to officiate, he was a bit reluctant.  But thankfully, he quickly warmed to the idea.  And then over the coming months, he completely blew us away with the care and time and heart he poured into preparing the ceremony.

He based the ceremony on The Episcopal Book Of Prayer (the New Zealand edition, of course), incorporating in some elements from the various other¬†traditions, and weaving in quotes from some favorite¬†authors¬†(such as Martin Buber and George Elliot) and¬†lots of¬†reflections on¬†our story thus far. ¬†It was all so him and so us…and so moving.

Oh, and Barclay’s dad is also from New Zealand. ¬†So when you read everything below, imagine it with the extra touch of a delightful Kiwi accent.¬†ūüėä

After an opening prayer, the service began with one of my favorite moments of the evening — all four of our parents gathering around to give us a Celtic blessing, followed by lots of hugs. ¬†It read:

Dearest Ones: 
As Spring unfolds the dream of the earth, 
May you bring each other’s hearts to birth.
As Summer sun warms the dear world’s face,
May your words for each other be touched with grace.
As Autumn leaves gather the day’s bright color,  
May forgiveness bring you back to each other. 
As jeweled light shines from Winter’s drifts, 
May you welcome each other’s hidden gifts.
As the star lies gently in the new moon’s breast, 
May your home be a place of peaceful rest.
Inspired by those who made compassion their call
May you be partners in seeking justice for all. 
And many years hence, may you say it’s true,
In a hundred life-times, I’d still choose you. 

Afterwards, we had three different readings — one by Auntie Cec (Barclay’s awesome aunt whom we stayed with — and completely fell in love with — while we were attending the Martin family reunion in New Zealand last year), one by Barclay’s coworkers Judith (who flew in from Colombia for the wedding as a surprise, and read in Spanish) and Dora (who’s also Barc’s Spanish teacher on lunch breaks here in KC, and translated in English), and one by our friends Maureen and Toby (two of our favorites who have been such special friends to Barclay and I together).

They read…

On Marriage | Kahlil Gibran

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.

Excerpts From Sonnet 53 | Pablo Neruda

Here are the bread‚ÄĒthe wine‚ÄĒthe table‚ÄĒthe house:
a man’s needs, and a woman’s, and a life’s.
Peace whirled through and settled in this place:
the common fire burned, to make this light.
 
Hail to your two hands, which fly and make
their white creations, the singing and the food:
salve! the wholesomeness of your busy feet;
viva! the ballerina who dances with the broom.
 
they are this respite, your blood in mine,
this path, starry and blue as the night,
this never-ending simple tenderness.

Song Of Solomon 2:8-10, 8:6-7

My beloved speaks and says to me:
‘Arise, my love, my fair one,
and come away;
for now the winter is past,
the rain is over and gone.
The flowers appear on the earth;
the time of singing has come,
and the voice of the turtle dove
is heard in our land.
The fig tree puts forth its figs,
and the vines are in blossom;
they give forth fragrance.
Arise, my love, my fair one,
and come away.’
 
Set me as a seal upon your heart,
as a seal upon your arm;
for love is strong as death,
passion fierce as the grave.
Its flashes are flashes of fire,
a raging flame.
Many waters cannot quench love,
neither can floods drown it.
If one offered for love
all the wealth of one’s house,
it would be utterly scorned.
 
So, arise, my love, my fair one,
and come away;
for now the winter is past,
the rain is over and gone.
The flowers appear on the earth;
the time of singing has come.

So lovely.  Then it came time for our vows.

Initially, we had planned to do both traditional vows¬†and write our own vows. ¬†But after giving it some more thought, we decided to save writing our own until we renew our vows on our 10-year anniversary, once we know a thing or two about marriage.¬† And in the meantime, lean on the wisdom of the long line of those who have gone¬†before us with¬†traditional vows. ¬†(I also really loved the idea of having traditional vows so that we could be reminded of our own each time we hear them said at another wedding. ūüíõ)

We chose to use vows from the Quaker tradition, because of their courageous commitment over the centuries to the work of peace and social justice. ¬†And I loved hearing Barclay’s confident voice speak each one, as his kind gaze never wavered from my eyes.

Then exchanged rings — mine from my great-grandmother Ali, and Barclay’s made from New Zealand kauri wood.

And listened as our three friends — Lindsey, Sara and Sarah — sang “Trinity Song” by Sandra McCracken as a prayer. ¬†It was so moving, and so beautiful.

And then¬†came the moment I feel like I’ve been hoping for my entire life.

“Since Barclay and Ali have given themselves to each other with vows and have declared their marriage by joining hands and by the giving and receiving of rings, we are ready to make the proclamation of marriage…”

…but get this. ¬†Instead of making the proclamation himself, Howard insisted that this was something the community should do all together.

So on his cue, all 350 of our friends and family said together in unison, with their voices ringing throughour that huge hall:

“We now pronounce you husband and wife!”

ūüéČ ūüéČ ūüéČ

AND WE WERE MARRIED!!!

Oh yeah, that’s my¬†husband right there! ūüėė

Instantly the room was filled with the sound of friends’ drums, which literally followed us and got louder and louder and louder with each step…

…and then they erupted into “Signed, Sealed, Delivered”…

…and¬†the party officially began!

For now the winter is past,
the rain is over and gone.
The flowers appear on the earth,
and the time of singing has come.

ūüíõ

(Stay tuned tomorrow for photos and stories from our reception!)

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79 comments on “Our Wedding Ceremony”

  1. Ali & Barclay, I am in tears! What a beautiful tribute to your lives together. Many happy wishes to both of you!

  2. Just crying over here at my desk…

  3. Seriously, you guys might be the cutest EVER! I am in tears, but loved your amazing wedding day story!

  4. Oh Ali, my heart goes out to you. I also struggle with low back pain and know how awful those bad days can be. I’m glad you were able to press through and make the most of your day. Everything looked beautiful.

  5. SO BEAUTIFUL. I love every one of your readings and blessings!

  6. love love love

    <3

  7. THAT SONG. How did you hold it together walking down the aisle?! ūüė≠ūüė≠ūüė≠ Seriously, this is all overwhelmingly beautiful. Congratulations to you both. You are glowing!

  8. How am I supposed to work when my eyes are filled with tears of joy for seeing the loveliness of your wedding?! So happy for you and your new life together.

  9. Oh Ali! This is so lovely and I got teary eyed a time or two!

  10. Also literally in tears. What an amazing day!

  11. Crying my eyes out right now. What a perfect day for you guys. <3

  12. Cue the waterworks. So lovely. Congrats to you both :)

  13. Yep, third day in a row for tears from me, too. Blessing on you and Barclay, Ali.

  14. Your mom’s dress is amazing! I will be a mother of the bride next July! What brand is her dress?

    • I got it at Dillard’s. Brand is Jessica Howard. It was the BEST dress – absolutely fun to wear. Heavy fabric forgives the “bulges”. Didn’t have to wear hose on Spanx because skirt is full. WIN!

  15. Wonderful pictures and sentiments I got a little misty eyed! Congratulations you two lovebirds! Awwww!

  16. Darn it! You have me in tears…at work!

  17. Oh Ali, how beautiful your ceremony was! I’m a bucket of tears! Congrats to you and Barclay. You are not only a beautiful couple but beautiful souls as well.

  18. Congrats Ali and Barclay!
    Heavenly Father,
    Bless this special day for Ali and Barclay.
    Thank-you for this beautiful couple.
    May you continue to guide them on this exciting journey.
    In Jesus’ Name,
    Amen

  19. I dont know either of you and just recently joined but I am so very happy for you! It seems like a match made in heaven – brought tears to my eyes… Congrats – be happy always

  20. I thought this was absolutely the most beautiful and personal ceremony, brought tears of joy to my eyes. Genuine happiness beams from your faces. I hope you both have a blessed and happy life together. Congratulations!!!

  21. omg my heart! <3 so beautiful and perfect and oh so happy for you both and your families!

  22. Sharing this awesome time of your life has brought the most incredible feelings to my heart. It’s a real life fairy tale!
    True Love!
    God bless both of you and your life together!

  23. Just gorgeous!!

  24. Your pictures and the happiness I see in them brought tears to my eyes. May all your days as one by happy & filled with the love of God

  25. Absolutely beautiful, thank you so much for sharing your special moments.

    arLeen from Canada

  26. Thank you for sharing your amazing wedding…I wish your post had sound!!!!!

  27. Thank you for sharing your wedding. It was extremely interesting

  28. I too am tearful. Thank-you so much for sharing this special time in your lives. It has been wonderful and I am looking forward to the reception post.

  29. Thank you so much for inviting me to your wedding. I truly will never forget it.

  30. Ali and Barclay…Such a memorable way to start off your life together. May you both enjoy the memories of your ceremony with world-wide special guests, family and dear friends. As days become weeks, weeks into months and months into years, may you both feel the same for each other as you did the moment the congregation welcomed you as husband and wife. Best wishes to you both for your future.

  31. Oh Ali, how very lovely your wedding was and you both deserve the very best that life has to give! I’ve been reading your blog for quite some time and had meant to write before this…I remember when I first started, you had written a very heart wrenching post on being single which I forwarded to my daughter who was experiencing the same feelings. You have been a blessing to many people without even knowing! What a beautiful life God has given to you and Barclay…many blessings.

  32. tears at work! Thank you for sharing.. Blessings on your Marriage and future. Beautiful!

  33. Totally beautiful!!

  34. It doesn’t get anymore beautiful than this…….well done….congrats!!!!!

  35. Absolutely beautiful!

  36. I don’t think I have ever seen two people look at each other like the two of you have in these beautiful pictures.
    I wish you both the very best . You did an amazing job with the planning the place is just so different and lovely.

  37. It was wonderful! Beautiful retelling!

  38. Just crying and crying while reading this – you two are such beautiful souls!

  39. What a wonderful, moving wedding ceremony. Happiness to you both.

  40. Oh Ali, I bawled through this post. Nothing short of perfection. The picture of you and your dad (your eyes are both a bit closed) right above some of the song lyrics is one of my favorite. I hope you frame it and keep it forever. SO happy for you friend, and thank you for sharing this special day with the world :)

  41. What a beautiful ceremony and in the writing of it I felt present. I read and looked at the accompanying pictures with tears in my eyes.

    Thank you for sharing with me.

    Shalom and love to you and your beloved husband.

  42. You two are beautiful together. So, so happy for you both

  43. If pictures tell truth, you two have to be together for eternity. Love your families as well. What a striking couple you make. Wish you all better than the best for your lives together. Thanks for sharing special photos. Such a lovely story they told.

    Anadimae (diana mae)

  44. I’m so enjoying your rehearsal dinner, wedding and look forward to the reception. So meaningful and special and it brings great joy to see someone that really found their soulmate!
    Thank you for sharing your joy with us!

  45. Thank you for sharing the heart, spirit, and soul of your wedding, as well as the pictures! What a delight to see. I have followed your food blog for awhile now and love your recipes. How fun to see you find the love of your life and soulmate in this way! Marriage is great! Especially when you marry your best friend – it only gets better (speaking from experience..)
    I want to share a link of an excellent resource for your back. https://www.essentrics.com
    No more back pain or spasms – and stretching daily has improved everything . She was featured on TED talk https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8hLMitXvvbY
    Best to you and Barclay!

  46. I am actually a puddle, a legitimate puddle. ūüíú This is making me even more excited for my own wedding on 10/14 ūüėć Just loving these recaps!!

  47. What a lovely wedding! I so feel the love that you and Barclay have for one another and it is so touching and heartwarming! You are such an adorable and precious couple! I felt like I was right there sharing your beautiful day with you! Thank you for sharing your special day with us! I wish all the love and happiness that you both deserve!

  48. What a beautiful station-gorgeous! Everyone and everything-music, readings -just beautiful! Blessings to you both as you begin your life together!

  49. How lovely and moving. I got goose bumps!
    Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful day!

  50. What a lovely heartfelt ceremony. Really beautiful.